I feel a blow-my-diet weekend coming on.  It’s 4pm as I’m writing this.  I’m hungry. I think. I’ve been snacking since 3, but nothing is satisfying me. What am I craving? chocolate chip cookies (the one I passed up the other day) Hamburgers (the ones I only took one bite of 2 weekends ago) Pizza (the one I went upstairs to avoid). Maybe I’ve been depriving myself too much. Maybe instead of using my cheats on wine, I should use one cheat a week on something unhealthy.

I’m going to a friend’s house for dinner tonight. She was kind enough to let me know in advance what her menu was so that I could plan my week accordingly. I needed to save 2 cheats for tonight’s dinner. One more if I want dessert or wine. I should be fine because I did earn an extra cheat this week (I did at least 3 strengh training sessions), but I used that cheat last night on my second glass of wine.  I was depressed last night (if you couldn’t tell by my post). No real reason, I guess, other than the kids were like little headless chickens by dinnertime and I was a screaming banshee, but I digress…

Sunday we have a HUGE potluck picnic to go to.  I think there must be thirty families going. That’s at least thirty different foods to choose from, as some families are bringing more than one thing. While I know there will be some healthy things there for me to eat (I’m bringing Hummus this time), I’m worried that since I won’t have any cheats there I might not be strong enough, and blow my diet this week. I wonder if it’s the lack of water in my diet today, or the fact that I didn’t work out that is sending me back into crazy craving mode. Hmmm…

Upon my return: I lost control. I had meatloaf, mashed potatoes, corn with butter, green beans, 2 glasses wine AND a slice of apple pie. No, not one bite, as I suggest in my tips but the whole piece and 2 bites of my husband’s vanilla ice cream. EEK. I have gone way over my cheats this week in one blow. I am over by 2 cheats. I have no room at all tomorrow. I guess that’s good because there will be no need to choose what to splurge on, I simply can not splurge. I’ll eat a large snack just before we go and I should have to let hunger control me.

Since I “blew it” this week, I can only dust myself off and try again starting now. No need to bring myself down and wallow in it. Then I might need to find solace in some brownies or chips and salsa (if we had any in the house). Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow will be a good day.

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Posted: September 29th, 2007 under Daily Journal.
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